I read that a certain hyperactivity is one of the phytodren side effects to watch for, but that’s not relevant to this post—-I’m not even on Phytodren for chrissakes! I sure could use a little hyperactivity, though. I have tons to finish this week; and though I start out each day feeling mighty and able to do anything, I find myself losing steam by afternoon. By the time it gets just a little bit dark outside, my resolve to keep busy has disappeared completely, and I end up curling up by the couch with a book or a sketch pad, ready to call it a day.
Anyway, I’ve taken to leaving myself little love notes here and there. I’m very forgetful; and I’ve found that these little reminders help keep me on track. I won’t post those though; they’re ridiculous. Even I scratch my head over some of the notes I make for myself. However, there’s this note I’ve made my laptop wallpaper for three weeks now. I like it because it keeps me hopeful.
On days when I feel hemmed in, frustrated by everything I want to do but haven’t done, I look at this and things don’t seem so bleak anymore. There’s a quiet joy in knowing that right this moment, at least a thousand people in the world are looking at this, too, and wishing for the same things as I. To borrow from The Lonely Planet, it’s not such a lonely planet, after all.
In my case, number one on the list is a tan. I’m 29, and I still can’t tan. Hateful.