So Be Lonely. Make a Map of Your Loneliness, and Sit With It

It has been very hard explaining to the girls why their father and I no longer live together. And because I can be such a coward sometimes, I didn’t. I trusted them to figure it out on their own. And

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So Be Lonely. Make a Map of Your Loneliness, and Sit With It

It has been very hard explaining to the girls why their father and I no longer live together. And because I can be such a coward sometimes, I didn’t. I trusted them to figure it out on their own. And

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I’m Okay

I’m okay. I’m writing that because I believe it. I’m okay. I try not to ruin it by thinking why, how, or when it happened. It’s been some time since I was, and I’m glad I can say this now

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I’m Okay

I’m okay. I’m writing that because I believe it. I’m okay. I try not to ruin it by thinking why, how, or when it happened. It’s been some time since I was, and I’m glad I can say this now

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Life Gives, Life Takes

I believe in karma, in the heavens giving and taking away, so it surprised me very little when my sister gave birth days after my grandmother died. Meet Amelie Marguerite, my little niece who I got to name: a beautiful

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Life Gives, Life Takes

I believe in karma, in the heavens giving and taking away, so it surprised me very little when my sister gave birth days after my grandmother died. Meet Amelie Marguerite, my little niece who I got to name: a beautiful

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I Hope I Always Remember You, Mexico

I’ve never been truly alone in my life, but I never realized this until I flew to Mexico, and spent almost 36 hours hopping in and out of airplanes on my own. I was angry, initially, and that anger propelled

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I Hope I Always Remember You, Mexico

I’ve never been truly alone in my life, but I never realized this until I flew to Mexico, and spent almost 36 hours hopping in and out of airplanes on my own. I was angry, initially, and that anger propelled

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But You Just Go With It, And the More Often You Do, the Easier It Gets

It surprised no one when my hair turned orange the one week of the year my hair shouldn’t be orange. A year ago, I would have treated the situation like a national emergency. I would have gnashed my teeth, whined,

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But You Just Go With It, And the More Often You Do, the Easier It Gets

It surprised no one when my hair turned orange the one week of the year my hair shouldn’t be orange. A year ago, I would have treated the situation like a national emergency. I would have gnashed my teeth, whined,

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You Can’t Scare Her With Empty Spaces

“I’m here to listen,” he messaged on Facebook, and I am reminded once again of the irony that it’s those who know me that do not volunteer their two cents, while those that don’t give me the cash register. “Thank

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You Can’t Scare Her With Empty Spaces

“I’m here to listen,” he messaged on Facebook, and I am reminded once again of the irony that it’s those who know me that do not volunteer their two cents, while those that don’t give me the cash register. “Thank

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Caloocan. March 3, 2013.

“She’s always had many, many feelings but until today, she’s never had to apologize for any of them.”

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Caloocan. March 3, 2013.

“She’s always had many, many feelings but until today, she’s never had to apologize for any of them.”

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Face Sorrow With a Sharpie

I thought I was ready for her passing. Death would have been a kindness; she’d been through so much. But as it turns out, none of us were.  And so, I sit here, feeling sad and hollow, wishing I could

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Face Sorrow With a Sharpie

I thought I was ready for her passing. Death would have been a kindness; she’d been through so much. But as it turns out, none of us were.  And so, I sit here, feeling sad and hollow, wishing I could

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April 7, 2012.

“We have it in our head that if we fill our stomachs, we’ll fill our hearts.”― Kate Wicker, Weightless: Making Peace With Your Body

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April 7, 2012.

“We have it in our head that if we fill our stomachs, we’ll fill our hearts.”― Kate Wicker, Weightless: Making Peace With Your Body

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Love Is a Dog From Hell

“there is a loneliness in this world so great that you can see it in the slow movement of the hands of a clock. people so tired mutilated either by love or no love. people just are not good to

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Love Is a Dog From Hell

“there is a loneliness in this world so great that you can see it in the slow movement of the hands of a clock. people so tired mutilated either by love or no love. people just are not good to

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360

I never realized what a huge 360 my views have taken until I talked to W tonight. The ex and I, we talk which complicates things immensely because his parents think it’s just asking for grief–he’ll only fall in love

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360

I never realized what a huge 360 my views have taken until I talked to W tonight. The ex and I, we talk which complicates things immensely because his parents think it’s just asking for grief–he’ll only fall in love

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Jakarta, December 2012.

“Most of us need something not to walk away from.” ― Josh Stern

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Jakarta, December 2012.

“Most of us need something not to walk away from.” ― Josh Stern

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Nowhere

Halfway in, halfway out—that is where I am at the moment. I’m never wholly inside or outside. There’s always one foot out of the door. Today, I am one ticket away from goodbye. Maybe tomorrow I’d be sad enough to

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Nowhere

Halfway in, halfway out—that is where I am at the moment. I’m never wholly inside or outside. There’s always one foot out of the door. Today, I am one ticket away from goodbye. Maybe tomorrow I’d be sad enough to

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Once There Was a Boy Who Took Too Many Photos of Me

Once, there was a boy who took too many photos of me. He thought I’m more wonderful than all sunsets put together and told me so every day for 12 years. “You’re the best and happiest thing to happen to

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Once There Was a Boy Who Took Too Many Photos of Me

Once, there was a boy who took too many photos of me. He thought I’m more wonderful than all sunsets put together and told me so every day for 12 years. “You’re the best and happiest thing to happen to

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Veronica June Zarco Took My Money and Ran

Yes, she did–and I’m blogging about it to make sure this online seller who lives in Taguig doesn’t make off with your money like she did mine. I have no doubt it will happen again. After all, I ran her

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Veronica June Zarco Took My Money and Ran

Yes, she did–and I’m blogging about it to make sure this online seller who lives in Taguig doesn’t make off with your money like she did mine. I have no doubt it will happen again. After all, I ran her

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